Journaling; Attempting To Find My Magic

Its important to remember that we all have magic inside us.   - JK Rowling

Crawley Railway Station

I'm still journalling, almost every day, usually both before and after my shifts as well as longer entries on my days off. It keeps me sane. Its my way to keep the magic alive within me. I love to journal, more often than the need I have to journal. Some of you might be aware that I've been dealing with depression. Journalling is the biggest form of medication to take after the tablets I take each more that the doctor prescribed me to be taking. I'm also discovering other ways to help me find ways to release the stress and the swirl of thoughts that tend to clog up my my mind after a shift, or even to prepare myself for a shift (Andy bought me an Xbox One Lite a few months ago and I've been playing on it a lot more recently). I've haven't been writing as much as I would like, but oh well, just down to the fact that my shifts have been a lot busier recently. I'm still working a mix of afternoon and evening shifts (either 12pm-8pm or 3pm-11pm). Often I get home absolutely exhausted and I'm usually pretty grateful for having a roof over my head and a bed to crawl into after a long day at work.

Crawley Train Station, Direction: Horsham

When I do journal, there's always something to write about and I've found that there's a special feel to having a pen in my hand and a notebook to write in. You may be aware that I'm extremely fussy about the notebooks I write in and the pens I write with. I'm sure I've written before that I'm going to write a book of some sort or other one day. I'm a dreamer, I'll always write something. Maybe I'll just get my journals published. Someone's bound to be interested in reading the about the crazy journal I've been on and all the traveling I've done over the last few years. We'll see what happens with this.

The footpath next to London Gatwick Airport

I can't believe we're already in June of 2019, half way through the year. Time is flying past. I'm loving the fact that the weather has been lovely over the recent months. The heat makes me so happy, since I grew up in Uganda, with the consistent temperature through out the year. I have memories of having Christmas Dinner out in the garden in t-shirts and shorts. Here, in England, its always cold whenever Christmas comes around. Andy and I have taken to wearing matching Christmas sweaters on the day (yes, we have matching Christmas sweaters). I'm still adjusting to the weather over here in England and I've lived here for two years (next month), and I lived in Holland for about two years before that, and I still struggle with the cold. I miss Uganda, and I think I'll miss living there every day for the rest of my life. I am happy here in England but Uganda's the country I was born in, the country that has, and will always have, a special place in my heart. I don't carry Ugandan citizenship (due to already carrying duel nationality and Uganda only allowing duel citizenship, not triple) and would jump at getting it if it meant that I wouldn't lose the passports I already carry.

An EasyJet Flight on Final Approach to Landing at LGW

I'm not sure when I'm gonna write again, but I'll try to post regularly. My laptop's charging port isn't working properly so my laptop isn't really charging so I'm not able to use it as much as I would like to. That's why I haven't been posting entries on here as much as I would like. I have managed to get my phone sorted out though. I think I might have written before about how I dropped my Samsung S8+ down the stairs and the screen shattered. It stopped working within weeks. The next phone I had (an HTC) got dropped into a toilet, so Andy got me an Alcatel Pixi 4, which is an extremely slow, outdated phone. I made it work, but because it took so long loading, it wasn't worth having as it meant that if I needed to get hold of Andy, in an emergency, it would have taken me several minutes to unlock the phone and phone Andy. So when I last got paid, last week, I bought another phone (an iPhone SE). I'm gonna have to look after this phone until I can get a free upgrade with the phone company my contract is with.

Until the next time!