Sudden Shock

When something is gone, something better is coming.

On Thursday evening, I went into work, to do another twelve hour shift. I was looking forwards to the shift itself, but the meeting the next morning I'd been asked to attend, with the home manager, was something I wasn't looking forwards to as much. I loved working in care. I got through the shift, I enjoyed it. Then the next morning, I waited the hour, I prayed, I talked to my mum, I prayed with her. Then went for the meeting. Fifteen minutes later, I walked out of the care home for the last time. I'd had my contract terminated, I'd failed my probation because I was told I hadn't improved sufficiently for them to want to extend my contract. It came as a blow as I thought that I'd made amends for these short comings when first brought to my attention. I have since come to the conclusion that the team leaders hadn't notified the management that I had improved. I'd asked one of them if I had, and she'd confirmed it. So the management had gone on outdated information. I was too tired and shocked to appeal it.

Thankfully I have a little bit of time to look for new work, as Care UK pay their staff a month in lieu. So I've still got a whole month's wage for August and four days in September. However, I can't spend too long sitting on my hands, so I've already started looking for work. I'm currently in Horley Library using one of the computers to look for work and write this post. I wanted to say thank you to everyone who's shown love and support since I lost my job. I cried so much yesterday, I was so shocked. I went to work because I loved the residents. I loved looking after them and chatting with them. I didn't even get to say goodbye to them, or to the other staff. The greatest blessing through this time is knowing that God is walking through this with me, and that he knows what's going to happen next. I know that he's looking after me far more than anyone else ever could!